Rockstar- Alec Steele - {complete}

[Alec Steele]

Alec Steele
>>Party Like A Rockstar"

»Reach The End I'll Meet You There''

Player Name;; Ren
Age;; 15
Experience;; Too long. Bout 5 years
Other;; Ha. I made the rules!
RP example;;

Nicole let her eyes run over his face. Fear, upset, confusion and a hint or something else... She let her eyes drop to the floor. She had been right, she had destroyed everything. She wanted to leave or find a way to make it better but how could she do either? Leaving now might say that she didn't care what happened, and that she didn't even want to try and fix this mess but there was still no way she could see to fix it. She let her eyes glance up at him. Now because of her he was as much of a mess as her. Now he knew what she felt, something she would never wish upon someone else no matter how much she hated them. The want to just leave and let everyone else fight on without her. The fear of friendship and love and an overall hate of life and everything in it. What was it anyway? Just a sick game that no-one could win or lose. There was just one difference in what Reid had felt and what she felt, she had caused her own feelings by the way she reacted to love and death. He had not caused his own, she had. Suddenly she glared at the floor wishing it would reflect back at her. She had caused the pain of two people now. She let her glare disappear and she moved away from him to sit in one of the chairs against the walls.

She kept her eyes to her lap only glancing up when he shifted positions, pulling his knees to his chest. She watched as he settled his hands, his injured wrist ontop of the other. She quickly looked away. She may not have made the cut herself but she was the cause. He had not yet said it but just the look on his face told her everything she needed to know to blame herself. Reid could blame her too if he wanted... what was one more person who hated her? She listened as he answered not raising her eyes to look at him. His voice was so quiet but she was so focused on what he was saying she could hear every word. As he explained that he didn't understand what he had done she bit at her lip. Then he told her he had started to get sad after helping her. Typical isn't it? she thought angrily, mentally punishing herself The first person you let closer than the others, one person who tried to help and all you do is tear them apart, good work! Her own voice seemed to fill her head, teasing her taking her on her very own guilt trip. She fought her own mind, trying to stop the words that ran through her mind.

Nicole managed to stop the voice in only a couple of seconds then let her hands drop into her lap. She kept silent. Did he even want her here? How could they get past this? could they? She sighed and put her head in her hands then slowly began to reply.

"Then maybe you shouldn't have helped. I tell people not to help and look what happens when they do." She looked up at him with dark eyes "I just wanted to see if you were okay." She slowly pulled herself to her feet and started towards the door. Pushing him away was the only thing she could do right now, the only way she knew of. She hesitated near the door. "Is there anyone you want me to tell so they can come see you?" If she wasn't going to be here why not atleast offer to send someone else in. She kept her face blank and her eyes steady on his face waiting for an answer so she could leave him be, unless he wanted her to stay but it was all up to him. She hadn't had help from anyone in years, she hadn't let anyone close and the ones who had tried had quickly given up on her. Everyone had, but not Reid but now it seemed he had. He was scared of her now so maybe it would just better to leave him alone. She kept her eyes steady on his face as the thoughts ran quickly through her head while she waited for him.

»We're Still Breathing Don't Stop Breathing''

Character Name;; Alec Steele
Nicknames;; Alec, Steele, Whatever floats your boat.
Age;; 17
Gender;; Male
Clique;; Musicians
Sexuality;; Straight
Time At EA;; Just over a year
Face;; Randy Romance!

»His Creation At Its Finest''

Hair;; Black
Eyes;; Brown
Height;; 176cm
Wieght;; 60kgs
Overall Appearance;;

Alec is naturally thin, average height and has long-ish straight black hair that seems to always be in his face hiding his dark brown eyes which are usually lined in black eyeliner and sometimes even black eyeshadow too. He tends to have the 'emo' look which is added to by his peircings and tatoos. Snake bites, a monroe and a plug in his left ear. His tattoos are a black rose on his right arm and three stars on his left hand on the webbing where his thumb ends. These arent the only modifications on his body, his wrist and hip both hold scars and cuts from self harm. He keeps them hidden though, he doesnt want people to see them. The ones on his wrist he hides beneath cuffs, watches and sweatbands, even when he is sleeping.

Alec is always wearing skinny leg jeans and random tee's. He has an impressive collection of band tee's and hoodies. He is nearly always wearing a hoodie of some sort. His shoes consist of black and white hi-top converse and different types vans. He has never cared much for how he looks he just sort of throws on random stuff in the morning, but never fear, its always clean stuff.

»Its Not Too Late To Crawl''

Personality;;

This boy is all about his music. Alec seems like your generally happy kid. Happy, mature, caring. But the happiness is the results of constant ecstacy use, his was of escaping life. He hides from life and its problems, he refuses to acknowledge them. Instead he keeps himself on high, drunk or busy. He loves music and will often be found singing, playing guitar or at very least with his ipod which he never goes anywhere without. But despite all his drug use he is a genuinely nice person. He is always willing to sit down and listen, or play games with you to make you forget lifes problems, jst like he does.

His depression occasionally gets ontop of him where he will self-harm, or just stay in his dorm for days, but he will always be there for his friends. He is very good at keeping secrets, as would be expected, so he is extremely trustworthy. Oh and don't ever expect him to tell anyone about the ecstacy, depression or self harm.

Despite how nice he is Alec can sometimes come across as intimidating depending on his mood. This means people will often see him alone with his guitar and it can sometimes take quite a bit of courage, or stupidity, to approach him. But don't worry he is generally nice, if he isn't you can be assured that he is just having a bad day or you have done something to piss him off. When he decides he hates someone he holds a grudge but doesn't lower himself to fighting of any sort.

Even though his mother abandoned him, and the one family where he could actually view them as a family, he has no commitment issues or issues with being close to people. Or is that just the ecstacy? Who knows. He can be a hard one to work out but its worth it in the end.

Likes;; Girls' Alcohol' Music' ' Piercings' His guitars' Singing' The rain' Sharpies' Fire' Ecstacy'
Dislikes;; Rap' Hippos' Swimming' Orange Fanta' Bullies' His mother' Bullies' Sleeping' Being Sick' Hospitals'

Fears;;

Strengths;;

Weaknesses;;

Secrets;;
One' He self harms
Two' He uses ecstacy
Three' His father was an alcoholic and His mother left him

Hopes/Dreams;;
One' To live with his foster family again
Two' To bring up a family of his own, the right way
Three' To become part of a band

»My Life Passes By As The Sky Fades Away''

Mother;; Rhianna Steele [foster] Kim West
Father;; --- [foster] Jake West
Siblings;; [foster family] Lucas and Lachlan
History;;

Alec was born January 5th to a loving mother named Rhianna Steele. When Alec was just 5 months old his father, who was an alcoholic, left and seemed to disappear off the face of the earth and Rhianna was left to raise her baby boy alone. When Alec was 9 a job opportunity came along for his mother but she wouldnt be able to take Alec with her. Desparate for money she found Alec a foster family and went off to pursue her dreams in New York. She hadnt wanted to leave Alec alone but she knew she needed the money for the house, bills, food and Alec.

Alec was left with Kim and Jake West. A couple who did not yet have any children of their own but they had been friends with Rhianna and so had agreed to take Alec in. With the new house, life and family came a new school. Being only 9 Alec had trouble dealing with so much change and began to blame himself for his mother leaving. If he had just been a better son, if he had just been smarter, funner, wanted less, complained less. If he'd just been perfect. These thoughts twisted and slowly became depression and by the time he was 12 he was self harming and actively suicidal. When Alec was 10 his foster parents had children of their own, two little boys, twins, Lucas and Lachlan.

It wasnt until he was 13 when Alec became mute that the Wests realised something was very very wrong but no matter what they did they couldnt get him to talk, or eat normally. A week before Alec's 14th birthday he attempted to take his own life through drug overdose. He waited until everyone was in bed then swallowed the pills he had been hoarding, 42 in all, a mix of anything he could find. But the next day it was clear he was sick and they took him to the hospital where his stomach was pumped.

After his attmept he was deemed emotionally unstable and diagnosed with severe depression and elective mutism. They first tackled his mutism and helped him talk again, well, he had always been able to talk, but he hadnt wanted too before moving on to help his depression. After a year in hospital he was allowed to return home to his foster family.

Alec only got to spend a year at home but it was a good year with no depression clouding his mind. His mother had kept in touch all his life but only a little bit with cards at christmas and on his birthdays and sometimes the occasional phone call. She had been arguing with Kim and Jake since he had gotten out of hospital about sending him to a boarding school. She had claimed it would be good for him to get out of that house, his foster parents had said more change was not a good idea. All year he had yelling matches with his mother over the phone about the boarding school.

In the end his mother won, she had threatened to take them to court to get a judge to decide but the Wests could not afford such a cost and so had had to give in. When Alec turned 16 his mother arrived on the doorstep to take him to EA. This was the first time she had seen him face to face since she had left him and he was not too happy about it, she hadnt even bothered to come when he had been in hospital. Until then, he had loved his mother, but his anger quickly turned to hate when she had decided to send him to the boarding school.

Once he arrived at EA he felt once again as if he had lost everything and his depression and self harm returned but this time instead of mutism he turned to ecstacy, because it induced euphoria. He relapse was not so strong and it was different this time, when it came it lasted only a few months so by the time his 17th birthday came around his use of ecstacy and depression had both lightened and he began to accept his new life.